Is it coming?

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First month he entered as a senior engineer was none of my business. his existence was out of my radar. whenever we bumped into each other i still started to smile at him, just for courtesy. that's all. "his smile attracted me at the first sight".

until the day we the old colleagues talk about him. i started to notice him, starting from the way he talk, the way he respond, his prayer time... i am interested...

i dont know when was the starting point i started to put him name in my prayer. maybe we have several conversation about work. it reflects on who i want in my partner. i feel more curious about him, i stalked all his socials. unfortunately only linkedin is left public. 

wahai allah, jika kedatangan dia dalam hidupku ini adalah ujian buat ku, maka bantu la aku untuk melepasi ujian ini tanpa sebarang sakit dalam hati, emosi yang gundah gulana, mental yang terseksa. 

wahai allah ya barik, kau tahu apa yang telah berlaku dan akan berlaku pada aku semuanya berada dalam tanganmu, maka jika benar dia hadir dalam hidupku ini sebagai pelengkap hidupku, orang yang kau redhai, orang yang kau pilih, yang soleh, bijaksana, lemah lembut, bertanggungjawab, penyabar, maka kau percepatkanlah dia untuk mengkhitbah ku lantas terus menjadi pelengkap iman ku. 

aku redha apa2 yang akan kau turunkan kepadaku. 

May Allah guide him, and guide me too — to something better, something written.

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