I blog again!

I almost forgot I have Blogspot long long ago. The latest post was on 2019 where that time I have tons of thoughts lingering in me and nobody was there to rely on. That time I realized prolong emotional behavior may affect my mental health. I started to feel anxious by the time the sv asked me to become a project leader for Kundasang's program. The anxiousness reach in peak when everything stuck in my head without solution coming through. The team members gossiped behind me as if I didnt heard them all. How hurt it was when your eyes see a beautiful landscape of Mount Kinabalu, at the same time you cry because of the problems you faced and it become a snowball and about time to explode.

At the moment, there comes a knight in shining amor who saved me from admit to phychiatrist! He was the punching bag, stand behind when I argued with sv, the advisor and all. Worry not, there is no deep affection between us because I have 10000 of reason to friendzone him. 

2 years pass, the anxiety come again. This time around was totally different than I thought it would happened. 

The communication was hanging,

No solution come after,

One side asks to accept his attitude without improve himself better,

He is the one who initiate it,

But he slowly ghosting it,

He thought his action doesnt affect my emotion,

But he is personally wrong and dont admit it,

And here I am everyday feel anxious thinking if I did anything wrong before.