semua tentang kita

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tarikh keramat ni
16ferbruary2010
2ary selepas hari kelahiran afiqah ramlan
aku telah berjaya melakukan satu tugas
telah selesai
insyaallah
mungkin berjaya
tapi
kenapa mungkin?
tak tak tak
sekali kali tidak
aku mestinya bolehh!!

teruskan
smalam
aku teruskan misi
misi yang semestinya wajib buat
sudah termaktub dalam pejanjian sahabat di atas buku nurul farhana
perjanjian itu kami selitkan dengan memohon keredhaan Allah
insyaallah
semua telah berjaya
aku!!!!
alhamdulillah
thanks frens aka sahabat setia
kerana mereka
aku dapat meneruskan jihad fisabilillah ini
camne nak cter
thanks kepada si dia
kerana memahami
bukan kerana nafsu
kerana redha Allah
terima kasih

buat kali terakhir...
semalam
aku coretkan sasuatu
untuk sidia
dengan harapan dia memahami
buat kali terakhir
jika hubungan ini diredhai
tidak kemana jua
aku redha
kami merancang
Tuhan menentukan
akhirnya
sampy disitu
jika benarlah dia milik aku kelak
jika aku gagal menemukannya didunia fana ini
izinkan aku ya Allah
temukan kanlah kami di pintuMu,,,
SYURGA YANG ABADI

biarlah perjuangan ini kutanggung sendirian
tanpa bertemankan nafsu
biarlah bertemankan redha MU
hanya padamu kuberserah
dengan kudrat yang ada
kusandarkan kejayaan melawan setan ini dengan ucapan
ALHAMDULILLAH


semua sahabat
lagi sekali terima kasih
kerana mengorbankan kasih sayan bukan muhrim kalian
untuk mengejar cita2 yang agung
untuk mencari redha Pencipta...


lagu ini
menjadi titik tolak permulaan hidup aku dan dia
berakhirnya sebuah pertemuan
diakhiri dengan kejayaan
insyaallah
kata2 terakhir sidia
"SELAMAT BELAJAR KAT LUAR NEGARA"

Comments

  1. nailahFebruary 16, 2010 at 11:35 AM

    alhamdulillah...walaupun sy tdk join prjanjian itu
    insyaAllah, ada prjanjian dgn diri sndr dan dgn Dia yg Maha Mengetahui
    doakan kita gak ye!

    jom sama2 seek for His love! ^_^

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  2. afiqahFebruary 16, 2010 at 11:41 AM

    haha
    mengharukan
    terima ksih
    teman...sahabat
    terharu ssgt!!!!

    ReplyDelete
  3. nailahFebruary 16, 2010 at 12:08 PM

    sama2 ^_^
    trimas sbb sudi share ur joy

    ReplyDelete

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