ntah,,,

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ary neh,,
astaghfirullahal'azim ku mulakan,,,
kesedihan merundung jiwa yang malang,,
kerapuhan nadi terasa bagaikan bergoyang,,,
keheningan pagi kuhancurkan dengan....
astaghfirullah,,,
skali lg kuungkapkan,,,
ku merasa dosa yang kutanggung,,,lebih berat drpd guni beras,,
ya Allah,,
berilah aku kkuatan utkmenghadapi ujian ini!!!
maksiat yang kulakukan amat memritkan,,
kumohon padamu ya Allah,,,,
kumegharapkan belas ehsan Mu ya Allah
berilah aku petunjuk da hidayahMu,,



ary neh,,
bgku amat perit rasanya,, pertama kali ku tulis blog seskema neh,,,
hahaha...
pasni,,,ku mengarap takkan lg kulakukan perbuatan ini,,,
ya Allah,
tolong,,,tolong,,
tolong jauhkan aku drpd maksita ini..
ini pemintaan aku ya Allah,,
ary neh mst lg baek drpd smlm,,,
mst!!!!~~~~~aja....!!!!!

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